There have been so many times when I've just wanted to vanish, to get on a bus and see where it takes me. You see it happen and read about it in books and movies now and then. The reasons for the characters’ escapes are usually tied to some kind of trouble, but for me, it’s simpler—I'm just tired. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of someone else holding the pen and dictating my life, claiming they know what’s best. I’m tired of feeling small, and I’m especially tired of being invisible and forgettable. In fact, I’ve had people confirm the forgettable part. In my perfect world, it's quiet year-round, and everyone knows each other’s name. Everyone takes care of each other, and no one is left behind. Being left behind is one of my biggest fears. My legacy is nothing. I know that after I'm gone, I’ll be forgotten, just like we all will be. I’m so lonely. I'm so lonely..